Excruciating Suffering: My Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Benjamin Miles
Benjamin Miles

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